Life is never as bad as it seems, do you notice that? No matter how much you're dreading something...it's never that bad! In fact, the day you're dreading can end up causing you to feel quite good about yourself, in the end.
Take today, for example: I was really not looking forward to today at all. I hate to admit it, but I was definitely dreading it. I really hate finding that I'm dreading my days. It makes me feel like I'm wishing my life away, and I don't like doing that either. Life's too short as it is. But, I had that Sunday night feeling of wanting to hang on for dear life to what was left of my weekend, knowing full well that I had a lot on my plate the next day. And, well, the "Monday Blues" are inevitable. To-do lists, in my opinion, are one of the best "inventions" ever. Once I sat down and wrote one for myself, the day seemed a lot less scary. It started to become more of an organized list of mini-goals to achieve, rather than a big pit of tangled, twisted objects to sort out, one by one. I actually love being busy, rather than bored, so I ended up rather enjoying the first half of my day quite a lot. It helps to have a fantastic friend who keeps me company on Facebook every day and a loving boyfriend to send long e-mails to.
But, after tackling the things I had set out to tackle this workday, I feel a great sense of accomplishment. There are more things that I wasn't really looking forward to this week, but I am looking at them now through a new attitude of positive determination. They will happen. And they will be successful.
It's funny how that works. I find that, for me, being pessimistic is so much easier than being optimistic. Once you think one negative thought, you just end up being like a big ball of tape, rolling down a hill. You collect so much momentum and dirt, you become harder and harder to control until you hit an obstacle and you stop dead in your tracks, unmoving, with no more energy left, and nowhere else to go. A negative state of mind is an easy place to stay in. Optimism, I find, is the opposite way. You have to find the energy to climb that hill, shed all the dirt that you've collected, be determined enough to keep going, and then, after all your efforts, you finally reach the top. But, think about it...isn't standing on top of the hill, looking at how far you've climbed, much more rewarding than looking at how far you've fallen? I think so. And that's why, after the feeling of dread I was experiencing yesterday, I am now feeling like I am standing on top of a hill, looking from my wonderful vantage point at what is coming, and being ready to take on whatever is approaching.
Life is never as bad as it seems, do you notice that?
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